Healing the Unseen Scars: My Trauma-Release Origin Story

“The most critical thing in a storm is not the fear of being shipwrecked, but the realization that we are not ships, but water, which can take any form, and cannot be destroyed.”

Anaïs Nin

There's a part of my story I don't share often. It's raw, humbling, and taught me the hardest—and most important—lesson of my life.

It started with epilepsy, a condition that stole more than 15 years of my life. And it ended with a revelation I never saw coming—one that would eventually become my life's work and my greatest gift to others.

The Freedom That Wasn't

In 2017, something miraculous happened. After years of living with pharmacoresistant epilepsy—the kind that doesn't respond to medication—brain surgery freed me completely. I became one of the rare people who could say, "I used to have epilepsy."

The gratitude was overwhelming. I had been given my life back, and I wanted desperately to turn all that pain into something meaningful for others who were still struggling.

So in 2019, I followed what I thought was my calling. I trained, learned, and did what everyone said to do: find a niche. I poured myself into creating memory improvement strategies specifically for people living with epilepsy. It felt perfect—I understood their struggle, I had solutions, and I was ready to give back.

Until it wasn't perfect at all.

Not long after launching my memory course, I realized I'd missed something crucial. The people I wanted to help weren't ready for the kind of support I was offering. They were overwhelmed, just trying to survive day to day. And I had forgotten what it actually felt like to live with epilepsy. Just remembering to take medication was hard back then—how could I expect them to focus on complex memory techniques?

The truth hit me hard: I hadn't integrated my pain. I had buried it.

It was heartbreaking. I felt like I'd failed, not just in business but in my purpose. And just like I'd done with my epilepsy experience, I buried that failure too and pretended it didn't happen.

When Freedom Feels Like a Lie

But the hardest realization came later, when all the buried pain started surfacing in ways I couldn't ignore.

Even though epilepsy was no longer part of my life, I still didn't feel free. I couldn't understand it. How could someone who had experienced a medical miracle feel so... lost? It wasn't just depression. It felt like I shouldn't even be here.

That's when I started searching for deeper answers.

And I found something I never expected: trauma.

I didn't think I had trauma. Like so many people, I thought trauma came from big, obvious events—abuse, violence, disasters. But what I learned changed everything: trauma can hide in the subtle moments too.

For me, it was growing up as a highly sensitive person, a child who often felt misunderstood and out of place. It was years of brushing off emotional wounds, unmet needs, and the weight of expectations—my own and others'. Layer upon layer, they had built a wall of unprocessed pain that prevented me from connecting with myself or feeling safe in my own body.

Research on highly sensitive persons (HSPs) shows that approximately 15-20% of the population has a more reactive nervous system, processing sensory and emotional information more deeply. Dr. Elaine Aron's work reveals that when sensitive children grow up in environments where their sensitivity isn't understood or honored, they often develop what looks like anxiety, depression, or—as in my case—a profound sense of not belonging, even in their own bodies.

Those invisible scars had stayed with me, shaping my life without me even realizing it.

The Promise That Changed Everything

Learning how to release that trauma changed everything. For the first time, I started feeling like I was reconnecting with my truth—releasing stored pain not just from the physical toll of epilepsy, but from the deeper emotional wounds I didn't even know were there.

And as I began releasing those layers, something unexpected happened: that calling to help others came back. But this time, it was different. Stronger. Clearer.

I made myself a promise in those dark months: I was going to create something meaningful with my life that could help others experience the deep freedom and liberation I was finally beginning to feel.

That promise became my compass. It created a filter through which I evaluated everything I learned, every modality I encountered, every technique I studied. I became single-focused in a way I'd never been before, even though I couldn't yet see exactly where it was leading.

The question I asked about everything was simple but uncompromising: Does this actually create freedom, or does it just help people cope better?

That discernment changed everything.

What I Discovered About How Trauma Actually Works

As I dove deeper into my own healing and began training in multiple trauma release modalities, I discovered something that would become the foundation of how I work today:

One method is never enough.

Here's why: trauma doesn't encode the same way in every person. Your body, your nervous system, your energy field—they store traumatic experiences in uniquely personal ways based on countless factors. Your age when it happened. Your nervous system's natural tendencies. Your family patterns. The specific nature of the wound.

This is why traditional therapy works beautifully for some people and barely touches others. Why somatic work creates breakthroughs for one person but feels inaccessible to another. Why energy healing profoundly shifts someone while leaving the next person unchanged.

It's not that any method is wrong—it's that trauma has multiple dimensions, and healing requires matching the right approach to where and how your trauma is actually stored.

Dr. Bessel van der Kolk's research in The Body Keeps the Score demonstrates that trauma lives in the body, not just the mind. But even that understanding is incomplete. Through my own healing and now in working with hundreds of clients, I've witnessed that trauma encodes across multiple layers:

The somatic layer:

Physical tension, nervous system dysregulation, held patterns in fascia and tissue. This is where techniques like Somatic Experiencing and body-based trauma release are essential.

The energetic/subtle layer:

Blocks in the subtle body, disrupted energy flow, protective armoring that traditional bodywork can't access. This requires working with the subtle body directly—the bridge between your physical form and the deeper energetic imprints.

The subconscious layer:

Beliefs, patterns, and programs running beneath conscious awareness. Sometimes the fastest path to freedom is through subconscious rewiring that shifts the underlying software.

The ancestral layer:

Epigenetic research, particularly the groundbreaking work of Dr. Rachel Yehuda on inherited trauma, shows that traumatic experiences can be passed through generations. You may be carrying wounds that aren't even from your own life. The morphogenic fields of your ancestry influence what you carry in ways we're only beginning to understand.

The soul layer:

For those open to it, there are imprints that transcend this lifetime—past life experiences, karmic patterns, soul contracts. I don't require clients to believe this, but I've witnessed releases that can only be explained through this lens.

Not every person's trauma lives in all these layers. But when it does, addressing only one dimension leaves the others untouched—which is why people can do years of one type of work and still feel stuck.

The Gift That Emerged From My Pain

This understanding didn't come from books or training alone. It came from living it—from experiencing my own multi-dimensional healing and developing a capacity I never expected.

My highly sensitive nature, which had once felt like a burden, became my greatest asset in this work. I could sense where someone's trauma was actually encoded. Not just intellectually understand it, but feel where their freedom was blocked and what type of approach would unlock it.

I trained extensively—Subtle Body™ Trauma Release, MAP™ (Memory Reconsolidation), somatic modalities, energy work, subconscious reprogramming. Not to collect certifications, but because I needed the right tool for each unique encoding I encountered.

I never thought I'd say this, but I do consider myself a high achiever when it comes to trauma release results. Not because I'm special, but because I learned to be ruthlessly discerning about what actually creates freedom versus what just creates temporary relief or better coping.

Sometimes a client needs somatic ingredients—movement, shaking, physical discharge. Sometimes they need subtle body tools that work with energetic imprints. Sometimes the fastest path is subconscious rewiring. And sometimes it's a combination, precisely sequenced for their unique system.

Here's what I've witnessed: A woman who had done eight years of talk therapy finally released her anxiety in three sessions when we worked with the subtle body layer where the trauma was actually stored. A man whose chronic pain persisted through every physical intervention found relief when we addressed the ancestral pattern he was unknowingly carrying. A client stuck in repeated relationship patterns shifted completely when we released a soul-level imprint that traditional psychology couldn't touch.

The results started speaking for themselves—people who had been stuck for decades finding freedom in weeks or months instead of years.

Why This Matters for Your Healing

If you're reading this and you've tried everything—therapy, bodywork, meditation, medication, self-help books—and something still feels stuck, unresolved, or just out of reach, I want you to know: You're not broken. The approach just hasn't matched your unique encoding yet.

Most healing modalities are trained in one lens. Therapists learn to work with the mind and emotions. Bodyworkers address the physical. Energy healers focus on the energetic. But trauma doesn't respect these boundaries—it encodes wherever it needs to in order to keep you protected.

What you need is someone who can sense where your trauma actually lives and has the training to work with it there. Someone who isn't committed to one method but to your freedom, whatever tools that requires.

This is what my journey gave me: the ability to see and sense your unique encoding, and the multi-dimensional training to meet you exactly where your healing needs to happen.

The Path From Here

Trauma hides in unexpected places—childhood experiences we dismissed as "not that bad," societal pressures we internalized, parental expectations we're still trying to meet, ancestral patterns we inherited without knowing. It shows up in our triggers, our judgments, our stuck places, our bodies' persistent symptoms.

Most of us don't seek help until it becomes unbearable. But here's what I've learned: you don't have to wait until you're in crisis. And healing doesn't have to take decades.

When you work with someone who can identify where your trauma is actually encoded and knows how to work with those specific layers, freedom comes faster than you thought possible. Not because it's easy, but because you're finally working with the right tool for your unique structure.

I feel deeply honored to guide people through this process—to help them release what they've been carrying and reconnect with their true selves. Seeing someone come out the other side lighter, more present, more authentically themselves? It's the greatest gift, and it never gets old.

A Note on the Name "Diosa"

People often ask about my name. Diosa means "goddess" in Spanish. Alida Diosa is the identity I created when I woke up after brain surgery, unable to move the left side of my body.

In that moment of profound vulnerability and uncertainty, I needed to connect with the most resilient part of myself. Diosa represents that part—the part that survived, that chose to heal, that refused to stay buried. She's the part of me that now creates radical transformations for my clients, helping them find their own unshakeable resilience.

Your Invitation

If you know someone who's stuck, overwhelmed, or held back by something they can't seem to move past—someone who's tried traditional approaches without finding full freedom, let them know there's a way to release it that meets them exactly where their trauma is encoded.

I work with individuals ready to experience genuine liberation, not just better coping. If that's you, I'd be honored to help you find your way back home to yourself.

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💛 A gentle reminder: You're not confused. You're protected. And you can finally see clearly when you're ready. -Alida

Reclaiming Your Freedom

Every challenge we face leaves a mark, but it also offers a choice: to stay in the shadow of that experience or to step into the light of transformation.

My journey taught me that healing isn't about erasing the past—it's about reclaiming the power it took from us. It's about learning to see our struggles not as failures but as pathways to a more authentic, connected, and free version of ourselves.

If there's one thing I know with absolute certainty, it's that freedom isn't just the absence of pain—it's the presence of peace, self-love, and the courage to be fully yourself. And it's within reach, no matter how long you've been carrying the weight of your past.

As you read this, I hope you're reminded that healing is possible, even in the places that feel too deep or too buried. Take a moment to honor your resilience, your story, and the part of you that's still fighting for freedom.

You're not alone on this path. And when you're ready, I'm here to guide you toward that light.

✨ YOU DESERVE YOUR HEART'S DESIRES. THAT'S THE TRUTH YOUR SOUL HAS ALWAYS KNOWN. ✨

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Related Resources & Further Reading

Scientific Research

Explore the pioneering work of Dr. Elaine Aron on Highly Sensitive People, a comprehensive database explaining sensory processing sensitivity and its impact on emotional well-being.

Learn how trauma patterns can be inherited through generations in Trauma in Your DNA: Epigenetic Inheritance, an in-depth feature from Psychiatric Times.

For insights into how our nervous system governs responses to safety and threat, read Polyvagal Theory: A Science of Safety, a peer-reviewed exploration of the body’s trauma response system.

Clinical & Treatment Approaches

Discover Somatic Experiencing, Peter Levine’s groundbreaking body-based trauma release method used worldwide to help regulate the nervous system.

Review the latest findings on EMDR therapy in the 2024 research summary, EMDR Therapy: Current Evidence, published in the Journal of Traumatic Stress.

Gain a functional medicine perspective on the nervous system’s role in trauma recovery through Understanding PTSD from a Polyvagal Perspective.

Accessible Overviews

Read the 2024 TIME Magazine feature, Why People Still Misunderstand Trauma, highlighting Dr. Bessel van der Kolk’s work and the cultural evolution of trauma awareness.

Explore Psychology Today’s overview of Highly Sensitive People to understand how deep emotional processing influences relationships and healing.

And for a simple, practical introduction, visit What Is Polyvagal Theory? from the Polyvagal Institute to learn how the vagus nerve shapes connection and resilience.